Wednesday, March 01, 2006
The sand sifting through your fingers
You feel like you're losing grip
Falling into the great unknown
But somehow there is no fear
Hope flickers in the darkness
And you finally find your way
Even as you let go of all you know
Sense and logic lose their place
But you can't seem to care
No turning back to the beginning
No guessing what's at the end
But here in this moment
There is elation...
Posted at 12:28 am by innercircle
The downward spiral
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Once contained the confusion rises
As the lies begin rising to the surface
The promises made only to be broken
And you can't breathe for the pain
Rivers of salt corrode your cheeks
The bitter gasps of your regret
Your ragged breathing as you weep
The only sounds that you are alive
And you sense the creeping change
The subtle and insidious alteration
Running seems like the only option
You only wish it was that simple...
Posted at 12:55 am by innercircle
The downward spiral
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Another secret to keep
Another vow to break
Lying alone in your bed
You stare into the darkness
Everything that's inside
Keeps you awake at night
With your eyes closed
And your spirit roaming
It's in your dreams you live
In dreams you discover
The way you have to go
The freedom you looked for
Posted at 12:52 am by innercircle
The downward spiral
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
I want to flee from uncertainty
But you just won't let me go
I thought I made a choice
But you complicate me
You want me so bad it hurts
And I wish I could feel the same
But it's too late for that
I can't give what you're asking
I know you can't say goodbye
And I won't walk away
Let us linger in this facade
The only solace we have
Posted at 01:06 am by innercircle
The downward spiral
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
I was scared to stand alone
And I didn't want to leave
But to stay was my pain
And to go was my release
I stood among my friends
And knew that I did not belong
I had overstayed my welcome
And to linger would be wrong
To walk away I felt regret
My safety had now gone
Yet I had nothing left to mourn
For that day I was reborn.
Posted at 01:45 am by innercircle
The downward spiral
Sunday, December 04, 2005
I see through glass eyes
The world is cloudy
And I have become blind
Talking through sealed lips
Sewn shut by my grief
I can say no more
My hands are numb
I feel the cold
And I do not wait
The warmth was here
I used to feel
But it won't be back
I am alone.
Posted at 12:38 am by innercircle
The downward spiral
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Feeling too much
Thinking too little
Lies evolving
Reality dissolving
A look
A touch
Futile gestures
Awkward moments
An open wound
A bleeding heart
Someone's jewel
Another's fool
One mistaken
One too many
You weep
So bitter
And drift...it's over.
Posted at 09:18 pm by innercircle
The downward spiral
Monday, October 03, 2005
And cry the tears of shame
The salt stinging your eyes
And pouring into your wounds
Yesterday is far behind
The dread of morning comes
Lying in an empty bed
In the sheets entangled
You dream of nothing
Becoming empty
You're barely breathing
And in a last attempt
Even as you lie broken
You try to save me
A futile gesture
Too late for regrets
So here I watch
Blaming you
Misunderstood
I can't seem to find
The words to describe
How much I despise you
Posted at 04:09 am by innercircle
The downward spiral
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
The space which surrounds me and
the air which I breathe, it suffocates
and chokes me. I feel alone in a
mob, like Caesar, fearing for my safety
and yet comfortable in familiarity.
My eyes dart back and forth, the
blood shot of a sleepless soul, afraid
that once darkness descends so shall
the spirits rise to claim retribution.
Unheeded, the nightmares become a
reality, of screaming and the gnashing
of teeth, the grinding of bones and
the brightness of blood.
That is where it ends even as
It Begins.
Posted at 01:58 am by innercircle
The downward spiral
Upended is my conciousness when I breathe
You in, skin almost touching, a hair's breadth
Away and yet there is a sea of separation.
A corner-eye glance, the wetting of dry lips
And I feel the moisture seeping into my pores
Betraying the flush of a hidden secret.
Don't tear through my flesh to find the core
With blood on your hands you'll never be
Clean again, and there's no turning back.
Watch with blinded eyes so you don't see
What you will never be able to forget and
Then tomorrow may still bring the light.
I stand strong under the scrutiny of many,
Bearing no shame in my solitude, amused
I sit, gaze wandering among the masses.
And I wonder if I'll see what I'm looking
For, on the edge of unfailing desperation
My skeptical eye loses it's focus again.
Posted at 01:52 am by innercircle
The downward spiral